Sep 22 2007
Dirty Little Secrets
Soap Opera Sunday and Ben Part 2 (part one is here)!
The first time Ben kissed me, I was completely and totally shocked. We were friends—granted, we were the kind of friends to snuggle up on a couch together with our arms around each other and LOOK romantic to outsiders. But still. Friends. Nothing more. I never ever saw that kiss coming.
It’s not that I hadn’t started to feel “that way” about him, but I was in denial about it. My roommates and friends would tease us and I would roll my eyes and remind them that he was way younger than I was and that I was NOT interested, etc. They all found it impossible to believe, of course. How could I be snuggled up late at night with a boy who looked like THAT and not feel something?
And, of course, they were right. But I would never admit it.
So, suddenly I find myself making out with him on someone’s couch (I don’t even remember where we were—some movie party with a bunch of people, but it was dark enough that no one knew what was going on over at our couch. Hahaha), trying to silence the voices in my head that were screaming “WHAT ARE YOU DOING?”.
The movie ended, the lights came up, Ben and I acted as though nothing had ever happened. That night, as usual, I was interrogated by my roommates. Somehow I still couldn’t admit that anything had happened between us, so I lied. I felt horribly guilty about it—like by denying it all I was saying that he wasn’t good enough or whatever. I was so afraid that he would be so hurt.
Pretty soon, though, it became abundantly clear that he was denying it too. I wasn’t clear on his motivation, and I really didn’t care. He was my dirty little secret, and he wouldn’t ruin that secret for me.
And we kept up our dirty little secret, meeting in strange places at strange hours.
One night, while we were making out in the front room of my darkened apartment, the front door flew open and a girl I knew from my Astronomy class charged in.
“They were right!!! They were right!!! Everyone’s been trying to tell me that you two were together, but I refused to believe it! I’m gonna KILL you, Brillig, and castrate you, Ben!!!”
I sat up and said in a completely calm voice, “Ben? Why is there a strange woman in my apartment, screaming that she’s going to kill me and castrate you?”
“Oh, like you don’t KNOW!” she shrieked, and stormed out.
Ben sat quietly for a minute, and then got up and ran after her.
Join us next week, when we hear Brillig say, “you can’t be here, Ben. I’m on a date!”
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Your turn! (See a rundown of the rules below the Mr. Linky.) Remember to add your Soap Opera Sunday link once your post is up, and remember to link back to me and Kate. Can’t wait to see what y’all got for us this week!
For those of you new to the SOS scene, here’s a rundown of the rules:
1. Anyone can play SOS–the more the merrier.
2. The story can be about ANYTHING–typically, they are about past romances, but they don’t have to be. Think melodrama. Happy, silly, funny, or serious, sad, painful. It’s all good.
3. Generally the stories are TRUE stories. If yours is NOT a true story, but an exercise in creative writing, that’s fine. Just be sure you let us know it’s not true. We don’t want people calling the cops on your ex or anything…
4. Keep it clean. I don’t mean it has to be rated G. But if your writing typically uses phrases like “throbbing member” then this probably isn’t the game for you. Kate and I, your SOS hosts, reserve the right to delete your link if your subject material is too racy. So aim for the DRAMA of the story, rather than the, uh, gruesome details.
5. This one isn’t a rule, but it’s good Karma. Go around and read the other participants’ stories and leave them comments. This will help everyone have a good SOS experience, and it will increase your own traffic. Obviously, life gets in the way, or sometimes a certain post just doesn’t speak to you, and that’s okay. As I said, this isn’t a rule.






Looking forward to see what you have in store for us!!!
Can’t wait for yours - Maybe it should be about your week so far
Mine’s up… I had a bummer week, so I had to write about something silly and fun. Read all about my Bar Mitzvah adventure. As always, I’ll do my reading tomorrow so I have some fun for Sunday!
ACK!! Don’t tell me he’s got another dirty little secret with someone else?!?
HAHAHA I forgot this part of the story. I love it.
Gah! No offense to any of the other ladies, but of all the posts today yours has me the most hooked!
Oh my!! Hook, line, sinker.
And honey, you never need to apologize for taking so long if this is what the treat is at the end!
Hope you all start feeling better soon!!
Is Ben a pseudonym? BECAUSE, I’ve known you for quite some time but don’t know half of your SOS subjects. HAHAHHA!
I look forward to reading everyone’s SOS entries . . . after debating for quite some time, I’ve decided to jump on the bandwagon!
Brilig you have had such soapy times.
Mr B was my 2nd boyfriend.
I’ve been with him since I was 18 so I just don’t have that many stories I don’t think.
Big sigh.
Hmmm, must try harder.
Soooooooooo glad I came back. You tell these so well. A story that involves threats of castration? Wheeeeee!
Come and get some more bloggy bling sweetie.

A riveting read as always. So it was a sort of ‘When Harry met Sally’ thing, I guess. Except with better dialogue.
I’m love the way you leave us hanging, the “when we hear Brillig say…” is perfect! Can’t wait ’til next week.
With four young children, your ability to write in complete sentences never ceases to amaze me. And funny, too? AND you get all the cute guys?
Sigh.
I sure enjoy your stories — thanks again!
Ooh, this is getting juicy! Can’t wait until next week.
You know, I was just reflecting on something.
I think, quite possibly, you’ve seen more action than I have. Naughty Lil Minx.
Oh, and the web keeps spinning! And you got on ME for ending when I did? Hahahaha ha! Can’t wait to read what happens next!
So did that chick kill you?
hehehehe
Loving this one!! Not playing (again) this week. Just too much actual drama to deal with at home! But I do love reading! YAY SOS!!
OOOOHHHH!!!!! I’m hooked! Can’t wait for next week.
My post is up finally, and we’re all sick here too, so I cheated this week… sorry.
This is such a fun idea! I may have to revisit my own sordid past !
Ok, I did it!!
BTW: What a great read, Brillig!!!
This is the time you introduce the world to the term NCMO.
I was the queen of NCMO back in my day.
Edge of my seat darling, edge of my seat.
When I read your SOS it reminds that there was a time when I wasn’t somebody’s mom. Fun to think back on those heady days.
Alway entertaining.
Wow…I toyed with the idea of writing an SOS post, but I think I only have enough drama to take up maybe 3 or 4 weeks worth. Then I would have to be done.
I always enjoy hearing about your life. Oh the DRAMA!
I haven’t read your post yet.
I was too excited that I came here and my computer didn’t lock up.
It’s the little things that mean a lot.
Woot! I’m officially jumping onto the SOS bandwagon with my first post. Although mine aren’t nearly as juicy as yours!
Have I ever mentioned how much I hate cliffhangers?
I am hooked.
Throbbing member. Sorry. It totally cracked me up.
Oops! At least she left, eh? EH???
HaHa Brillig said “throbbing member”. That is now the highlight of my day.
I know , I know not real mature here am I.
You write with such mastery, compassion and wit, you’re like a breath of fresh air, I applaud your talent!
I got so hooked on your story that I just had to start following the other links too - is there a support group for the addiction you’ve created?
Man oh man…what wonderful drama!! I’ll be back next week to see what happens…sheesh-a-moley!
Boy! You really know how to keep a girl dangling here. Love the cliff hangers!